change in season. lack of reason.

'all we seem to know is how to show the feelings that are wrong'

that's exactly how i feel right now, self sabotaging. voluntary movements based on involuntary nerve connections. lack of control and will to grow. creative expression? replaced by forced objective standards. but i have subjective subject matters and missed sublimities. i missed the assignment on meaning to any of this. 

i want to run. home.away.anywhere. drama, drama, go away, come again, another day!